<bgsound src="http://www.hddweb.com/72928/inside_my_heart.wma" > Everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings***
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Friday, July 28, 2006
STRESS!!!!MOOD SWING!!!!STRESS=MOOD SWING!!!!nowadays, all my posts has the word stress...why???coz im stressed out...i dunno whether ta's the true feeling of stress...but i can feel it...it's in me...i will feel tired once i stop doing stuffs...i will feel lonely and tired and hopeless whenever i m alone...whenever my frienz talk, i will suddenly keep quiet and stare blankly into the open space...i will feel helpless some time and feel like crying...but the promise held back my tears...it was yesterday, 28 july 2006, tat i could nt hold back animore and let down my tears...every drop of tears are liked every drop of stress flowing out of my life...i could feel a relief after tat but it's nt as simple as people tink it was...i finally understand the meaning of stress...the true meaning of stress...it's a mixture of sadness, anger, frustration, desperation, tiredness and.....it's a complicating feeling or maybe it's nt a feeling...it will cause a person to lose confidence and have no mood to do anything and dun feel like doing anything animore...it will cause one to lose faith in one self...so if stress is harmful,why have stress???why muz we have stress in our life????is tis world fair to human beings???wad is being fair???giving in to others is being fair???letting others critizing is being fair???letting others backstab you is being fair???keeping quiet and suffer in silence is being fair???do things for the pleasure of people around you is being fair???wad is fairness???is there a word fairness in the dictionry???i dun tink there is a word fairness in mine...there is only stress in my dictionary...so why live???no point...no goals...no reasons too...it will only bring unhappiness to me...can i juz let go of everything????will i happier like tis??? will i realli be happy if i let go of everything in my life and live in my own world???i m nt sure myself...i dunno...i realli dunno...dun ask me...im too tired to tink anymore...tis month is realli a moody month for everyone...everyone round me is moody...i dunno issit coz i have been moody, tat's why everyting and everyone i see seems to be moody or issit i m imagining things???but i sense hatred in people and unhappiness in everyone...or m i the one who is feeling tat way???ask me???i dunno...i dunno wad to do???i tink i have fallen into my own world...deep inside me...cant get out animore...only i can rescue myself le...or maybe i will juz let it be...no more of all tis....i have give up...
[blowing the flute at the crack of dawn] 8:43 PM
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scorpio
13-11-91
hang out wif frienz
being lonely
being wif frienz,chocolates,lollipops,teddy bears, sweet memories
Wishing pond
good results
my family will understand me more
making the rite choices
be happier
nobody to leave me
Song Playing:
Title - Because of You
Artist - Kelly Clarkson
