<bgsound src="http://www.hddweb.com/72928/inside_my_heart.wma" > Everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings***
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
todae cd lesson time, miss nora told us her story bout her relationship wif her own family..her parents and two bros...it realli reminds me of myself...y is her story so similar to mine???although i still talk to my parents...although i have sort of maintain i good relationship wif them, it's nt tat perfect as it is...tis have been in me for a long time...i dunno wad to say bout it...i nvr say tis in front of anione coz i always felt tat it's nothing to talk about...maybe i may look tat nothing bad has happen to my family before...but things happen before...my parents love my brother more than they love me...honestly...i dunno why???but whenever he does something wrong, he wont get scolded...on the other hand, i will get scolded at times...when my bro didnt do his homework, and start playing...my parents will scold me for nt setting a good example for my brother...when i was actually doing my homework all the while...wad is tis???wad did i do???maybe my dad is nt tat bad...but my mum, i dunno...it's obvious tat my mum prefer my bro to me...it's obvious...once, she was so angry wif me for scolding my bro, she scolded me and said herself tat i always side wif my dad...all those woeds tat came out of her mouth actualli hurts me alot...it juz went straight into my heart...bt held back my tears...wad did i do wrongly????ok...maybe...i admit, i realli always side wif my dad...but tat's because my mum always side wif my bro and only my dad will side wif me and help...bt i dun understand...i dun always side de...i always side wif who i tink is right...why do they tink i take sides???ok...tat's why...now, i nvr say anything when my dad, mum and bro say anything...i wont realli give my opinion..coz i noe, my opinion will cause conflict...if my dad accept my opinion, my bro will feel unhappy...so i rather nt talk le...i dun understand wad i have done...hmm...maybe when people quarrel, they will understand each other better and learn more bout each other...maybe it's meant to be like tat...i have no opinions..i realli hope tat tis can be solve soon...maybe it takes time to heal the situation...THE WALL BETWEEN MY FAMILY AND ME WILL TAKE TIME TO BE KNOCK DOWN...
[blowing the flute at the crack of dawn] 1:26 AM
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hang out wif frienz
being lonely
being wif frienz,chocolates,lollipops,teddy bears, sweet memories
Wishing pond
good results
my family will understand me more
making the rite choices
be happier
nobody to leave me
Song Playing:
Title - Because of You
Artist - Kelly Clarkson
