<bgsound src="http://www.hddweb.com/72928/inside_my_heart.wma" > Everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings***
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
tis morning, 10nov, at bout 6.45am...zhuzhu left le...he sms me...he was shocked i actually replied...coz he thought i ll b sleeping...hmmm...he wouldnt know i actually nvr slp the whole nite...i onli slept for 2hours...i cant slp...haiz...i think bout lots of things yesterday...suddenly think back of the past also...i came down wif the conclusion that i realli need both zhuzhu and dazhu...they r very very important ppl in my life..i realli rely alot on them...they have leave very big and memorable footsteps in my live...tat time dazhu went of for 10days, i was so sad...suddenly blame myself for nt telling him wad happen when he's nt around...i was so sad...i onli could rely on zhuzhu at tat time...many things happen during tat 10days when dazhu was nt around...i was so devasted...i was still thinking and finding the purpose of livin on tis world...a world which is full of happiness and sadness...full of hopes but in the end nt all hopes can b achieve...tis world has fooled me around for a v long time...at first let me know him, then allow myself to hurt him...i was a fool then...hurtin ppl around me...then came dazhu...allow me to know him and let him to care for me...then off he went overseas...for 10days without him...then zhuzhu was left here in singapore wif me..but he has his own worries...i couldnt get him all the time...but after tat things got better...but nw he has gone off...cuming back onli on my birthdae...when he comes back, 3days lata, on 16nov, it's my turn to leave...tis time i dun have anyone anymore...nt even dazhu and zhuzhu...i have to rely on myself...i ll miss ppl here...i cant imagine wad ll happen to me...nw i onli wan zhuzhu to come back...he promise when he comes back, he ll contact me first...hopefully he can celebrate my birthday wif me...tAt ll b a present to me also...he says it ll b v soon tat he ll come back..i tell myself it's onli a weekend...but tis weekend ll b v long to me...although it's onli 3days, it seems so long to me...now dazhu is e onli here wif me..zhuzhu made me promise him tat i ll take tis time to spend more time wif dazhu...hmm...a promise is a promise...many things happen tis holidays...erm...maybe nt holidays to me...tis days v long and tiring and boring and saddening...it's unfair...forget bout the past..now it's time for me to look forward to e future...i need to b more positive...realli...i dun wan to b so sad le..I WAN TO B HAPPY!!!CANT I JUZ BE HAPPIER?? i so disturbed over tis matter...i cant stop thinking tat i m leaving le...
[blowing the flute at the crack of dawn] 5:59 PM
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scorpio
13-11-91
hang out wif frienz
being lonely
being wif frienz,chocolates,lollipops,teddy bears, sweet memories
Wishing pond
good results
my family will understand me more
making the rite choices
be happier
nobody to leave me
Song Playing:
Title - Because of You
Artist - Kelly Clarkson
